Chihuahuas, Music, and Becoming Brave
Date
February 9, 2016
Last week, I had a show at the Raise and Give Ball.
This is the first time in a long time that I can genuinely say I am really proud of myself, and without feeling like I sound arrogant or egotistical.
Music is something that is very close to my heart and that has helped me grow into the lady I am today. When I was little I used to make up really atrocious songs about random things like the Taco Bell Chihuahua and my stuffed animal collection, and I would record it on my computer so I could make CDs. I never really let anyone listen to them because I was embarrassed, but I showed my parents and they, of course, thought I was a lyrical genius. Years later, I showed my best friend who laughed uncontrollably at my nonsensical word choices. Nonetheless, I discovered why I loved to write music: I want to make people feel things. Whether that is humour, love, hope, or the like, I don't mind, I just want people to feel something when they hear it.
A girl came up to me after the show to thank me and say she really enjoyed listening to me sing. She enjoyed it. She felt something. THAT is the reason I make music. I have honestly never felt so happy.
Though I have had IMMENSE amounts of support from people in my life regarding music, I, like everyone, have also encountered some negative people. Being the sensitive Piscean that I am, some of the doubt has gotten to me over the years to a point where I really thought my dream of being a proper musician was really out of reach.
After this show, I have proved to myself that I am capable of accomplishing whatever I well feel like. I worked really hard and all of the doubtful remarks that once clouded my mind were proven wrong. More importantly, I believe in myself a bit more now. And you know, I am proud of that.
I can honestly say that the person I was before studying abroad would have been far too self-conscious to do this show on as short of notice as it was. Studying abroad has really helped me grow into a secure and confident young lady.
England, from the bottom of my heart, thanks for shaping me into a braver person with the ability to conquer my fears and achieve my dreams.
Here’s to whatever is next!
xx
These pieces were created by student contributors. The views and opinions expressed are their own and do not necessarily reflect those of Arcadia Abroad.